Think back to this time last year. Did you expect to be where you are now? Live, laugh, and learn with where the world takes you. – @senorica. December 31, 2012
Whatta year, this year.
In my attempt to mull over 2012 I tweeted that last night. Where to begin?
2012 was a year that exceeded, challenged and broke down my expectations into tears of joy and frustration. A year that revealed that I had expectations even when I told myself that I didn’t, rather, that I shouldn’t.
Did I expect to leave the Philippines and end up working in Singapore? Nope.
Did I expect to not pursue writing after college? Nope.
Did I expect to experience the other things-that-i-can’t-really-mention here? Nope.
Moving to Singapore was my big game changer this year. I left behind what I thought I wanted to explore a bigger picture and gain life experience. No one pressured me to go. I jumped off that cliff and began my free fall into an even bigger pool of uncertainty than if I stayed in the Philippines where it’s more comfortable. It became sink or swim. Survival of the mental and emotional fittest. Me versus Me. I learned that letting go is the only way to make it to surface and breathe again. Never did I think it would be so hard to forego. To embrace the water I had to feel vulnerable. I did and it scared me; it changed me. Ironically, it also made me a lot tougher.
2012 was a year that empowered and disillusioned me at the same time. Call it growing up, but Singapore helped me see how the world sees: in numbers and value added. How bottom lines exist and that’s not always a bad thing. That perception is reality and we all sell something, some people better than others. I will always be idealistic, but I can also be realistic.
2012 taught me that the world doesn’t end in 2012. Move on. Embrace the fact that anything can and will happen (both good and bad.) My job, where I live, and what I own are not permanent. Perhaps it anchors me, shapes my character, and makes my life easier, but ultimately it does not define me.
2012 taught me that people (my friends and family) are my sense of home wherever I am.
2012 taught me that structure and routine are underrated and can be a good thing, even for free-spirits like me.
2012 taught me that skills can be developed, but compassion can never be bought.
2012 taught me that money is important as a means not an end.
2012 taught me that the internet can wait. Cleaning up can’t.
2012 taught me to always smile.
2012 taught me that you don’t have to fly off to a far flung destination in order to travel.
2012 taught me that trusting is a valuable skill. Trusting your judgement to trust others and make decisions especially when you’re living abroad.
Did I expect to leave the Philippines and end up working in Singapore? Nope. Did I expect to not pursue writing? Nope. But I also didn’t expect I would learn how to support myself completely, budget, learn how to cook, do laundry, do content strategy, build a website, learn boolean logic and social listening. I would not have been able to travel internationally and learn how to live in a different culture. I would not have gotten closer to my sister and realize how important family is.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Perhaps it’s the divine expectation but the most important thing that 2012 taught me is to always have faith. Everything has a weird way of working out. Thank you to those who help me to never forget that. Bring it on, 2013. Give me more courage to jump.
More on my favorite moments of 2012 in my next post!