What I love about anticipating the new year is reminiscing about the one that just passed. It’s a unique kind of conclusion that you can only arrive at once you’re nearing the end of an experience. Each of those 365 days may be unique and separate on its own, but as a whole, it’s interesting to see that there’s actually a common thread you didn’t even realize that you were subconsciously spinning. It ties the year together in a simple knot, and maybe if it’s been a good year, with a lavish bow as well.
That’s what I’ve noticed after doing these end-of-the-year recaps for 3 years. 2008 was a series of life changing moments. 2009 was about meeting people who’ve impacted me greatly. Now, after compiling this year’s review, 2010’s recurrent theme was this: investing in myself, pursuing the things that I wanted to do, and truly starting not to give a f*ck about what anyone else thought.
Overall, it was a good year that pushed and pulled me in all kinds of unexpected directions. It broke through my apathetic facade that for once I cried (a lot) – for the good times and the bad, for the hopes and the disappointments, for taking the risk and then falling, for the moments when life felt shitty and the friends and family who helped me flush that shit down the toilet afterwards.
I feel that 2010 was the year I truly came to be – with my friends, family, work and most importantly myself, that I expect 2011 to continue being anything and everything but less. Cheers to my 2010 ! Thank you to those who made it particularly intoxicating!
There are things that I never thought I would have done this year, but did. All it takes is initiative, perseverance with a hint of gutsiness and the dare to dream. You never know where you’re going to end up!
1. Summer internship at Status- I remember being so adamant about finding an internship over summer and gaining work experience. This is the first time I really put myself out there and did everything myself – from creating my own resume, to finding contacts, to commuting to the interview. I will not repeat the loads that I learned because I already did here and here.
2. Brief stint as FEU Courtside Reporter- It’s definitely exciting to become a UAAP CSR but I learned the hard way that there’s always more to the flashing lights. Stepping out of your comfort zone & into the public eye is definitely scary but equally thrilling. I wouldn’t have gotten this far though without the help of so many people like Gab A. and Job D.L I don’t know what my fate is next year but for now I’ll take what i can get which in this case is free nike merchandise!
3. EAC Courtside Reporter- NCAA wasn’t my home league but it enabled me to feel at home reporting on the court. It doesn’t really matter where you are when you love what you’re doing. At the end of the day you’re still doing a job. Thank you NCAA and the Generals for everything I learned on and off the court.
4. URock Dj on NU 107!- I always look forward to boarding Monday night with Lisane! I can’t explain the high I would have after a good show. By far one of my best experiences to date.
5. MMQ Theatre Salon
A part of me is still a thespian although it’s not as obvious anymore. Before musicals and BlueRep there was straight theatre which was my first love. I didn’t think i’d be acting again until my sister told me about this audition. Plus, it’s the first time I got paid to act.
SIGNIFICANT EVENTS AND TRIPS – Priceless memories!
1. 20th birthday- I usually live in a birthday bubble but I often get cynical and disappointed with how i celebrate them. But this year was my best one yet. I had dinner and drinks with friends plus it was the first time i officially celebrated with my bestfriend and birthday twin by throwing a party! I love being 20 because it’s fabulous.
2. Boracay bound – I started 2010 with my best friends in Boracay. It was the first trip we went on together and it was everything you’d want in a trip and more.
3. Summer Bacolod and Caliraya – Summer was EPIC. So many things happened, so many drunk nights, so many places traveled to with just one random group of friends. I can’t imagine what junior year would be like if none of us were feeling spontaneous enough to go on a trip with almost strangers who are now our friends. I love traveling with people who are game to do anything and everything.
4. Sembreak in CDO – The adventure never stops and the group never stops growing. Highlights were Camiguin and conquering 21 white water rapids!
5. Ateneo Student Leaders Association- My first leadership seminar/ retreat in a long time. 5 days in Antipolo and it was all expenses paid. It was life changing and i learned a lot about myself for all of these reasons.
SMALL FEATS, BIG PERSONAL SATISFACTION
1. Money – I finally opened up my own bank account plus it’s the most money I’ve ever earned and saved. I’m proud that I funded 100% of all my aforementioned trips.
2. Exercise- This is the most exercise I’ve had. I started boxing for awhile and I’ve finished my first 5km in around 30 minutes!
3. Books – These are the most books I’ve ever read in one year because I finally made it a point to take some time out and read 9!
Life’s a bitch and it sucks we have to learn the hard way. Some lessons I learned when it slapped me in the face and left me crying.
1. One extreme hell week and unnecessary drama later – Just because you get along with them, doesn’t mean that they’re your friends. Don’t trust people so easily. It’s easier to forgive, not to forget.
2. The infamous wasted Ponti night– If there ever was a turning point with my alcohol intake and choice of lifestyle, this night was it. I had to face the consequences, and issues and it felt shitty.
3. FUCK IT– When life gives you lemons, eat chocolate cake.
“Like Chris. He said fuck it, I’ll do it my way. And the people that love me will understand why I’m doing it because they love me.”
“You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work… Fuck that. And fuck the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I’ll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest.”
4. Love- This picture is symbolic not just because of the event itself but because like the roller coaster, my love life this year had its highs and lows and was actually pretty interesting. I’m still single since birth but I finally learned how to just let go, close chapters, feel lightning and have unhealthy expectations from futile relationships. Plus, I went on dates with some pretty interesting guys who have affirmed what exactly it is about a guy that can excite me.
STEPPING UP, SERVING MORE
1. ACOMM– I’ve glad I finally decided to stay put. Running for AVP this year was a good choice. I’m learning a lot more about managing projects, making them better suited for our members and in the process developed good working relationships with my peers who are really so talented . Plus, my first project I managed completely by myself and revived, Cover Over Coffee was a success! :)
2. G– I love writing and although I don’t see myself going into publishing in the future, g was a great way to improve my skills. I love being around such creative minded people. Our story conferences are always so fun.
3. Toastmasters – Ever since I was promoted to Vp for Education I’ve started to see how Toastmasters can be a part of my future. There’s so much potential in this club and it was only when i was appointed and in a way “forced” to step up did i see just how much I wanted to help it grow.
1. ILTGN- My crazy friends and our crazy adventures. College would be so boring with out you guys and our tuesday lunches, friday night dinners, and saturday night inumans.
2. Aki – As the saying goes, “Some people […] stay for awhile and leave foot prints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.” One of the genuinely good hearted guys I’ve ever met and even though he’s miles away I know he’s a friend to keep forever. It’s hard to find guys you trust nowadays.
3. Keena– It’s rare to find kindred spirits, and when you do, you must hold on to them dearly so that they don’t ever go away (hence all our hugging pics haha!) Thank you Keena for restoring my faith in investing in people. I really, really appreciate the friendship and support you’ve given me this year : )
4. Triplets – This is a good year for us. I love you.
5. Family – Last but not least I want to give a shout out to my family. 2010 woke me up to the value of family. I’ve always been pretty close to my sisters but this year is the best relationship I think I’ve ever had with my parents. I am so grateful to have such a supporting, understanding and forgiving bunch of relatives.